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Masters
mood: 
crushed
crushedmusic: Life For Rent - Dido
Okie, digression a lil bit here....THe assignment! OMG! It was super hard. And I completed it sooooo last min, with quite a number of mistakes. Pls pray for me tht all goes well. My goodness, this paper I'm very upset with curz I know I didn't give my best for it.
Newayz....asthma attack. MC for 2 days. And I'm still not ok. Back to work and I lost my voice. ONCE AGAIN. But the other doc I went to advised me tht its partially the fault of my coughing [and asthma], so it causes my throat to dry up and become sore and den lose my voice. Nowadays I just sound like a guy la...Or rather just sound sexy?...Hahah. I dunno.
Hmmm...As for my goals tht I've defined for myself in life?....
Firstly, I've come to the conclusion tht I'm not gonna get married again. Not curz I don't want to. But curz I'm not gonna be accepted for my status as a divorcee. Its been difficult living life like this. I don't like to show it to anyone curz maybe I'm egoistic and feel tht I shd never show my weakness outside. However, recently too much setbacks have caused me to rethink alot of things in life. It makes me tear each time I think and realize tht I'm going thru quite a number of things in life all curz I've been married once.
Secondly, having hopes for a normal life is no good. Curz God keeps showing me I won't be able to get it. And I've succumbed to tht fact. No, I've not lost hope in God. My hope is still very much intact. I've just resigned to my fate.
So.....thing is I've decided not to settle down. And personally I had told myself tht if I don't settle down, I'll move on to do my Masters. And so...Looks like my goal is gonna come true. Curz for now I've decided tht I'll do my Masters.
Of curz my decision can change. Not because I'm fickle minded. It'll only change if somehow....just somehow I get to be paired up with the one meant for me. But since I've no hopes on tht aft the 2nd setback, I don't think so my goals are gonna change in a long time.
Thus, Masters in Education, here I come....It might be a different aspect, not just Education. I've got limited options, but Child Psychology seems tempting. Just tht I'm worried all tht delving into the way children think might derail my brains! Hehe!!!
Lets see what other options open up to me. I can only gauge for sure when I'm nearing my goal.
I don't know if at least I'll get this in life, since all other options seem to be exhausted. I can only hope and pray for the best. Most of all I need the the shards of pain to disappear from my heart. U can relate it to like shards of glass stuck to the bottom of ur feet and each time u take a step, it cuts in deeper and more blood oozes out and More pain shoots thru you.
I never, for a single second, thought tht I would be made to go thru stuff like this again.
Faith is all tht can pull a human being thru.....
(Anonymous)
Take care dear heart. One man's (or woman's) loss is another man's (or woman's) treasure. And you will always be the wonderful person that you are NO MATTER WHAT others might think because of what you have been through and don't ever let anyone take that away from you.....
=))
(Anonymous)
Anar
tk care sweets asthma can be cruel i noe, drink more water, avoid milk, banana, oranges okie na and wallop HONEY(pooh bear remedy).
Makcik
Yaz hehe
Re: Anar
*winks*
(Anonymous)
P/s child psychology is indeed a great one.. i love it alot. planning to do my masters too but in counseling. :) one of my goal too ;)
Lets see how. =))
Btw, who are u? =)))